Today I'm inspired by Mr. Jason Mraz. Thank you, sir!
I've reached the 5 week mark of The Broken Foot Debacle. Antsy doesn't begin to describe my state of mind. Today, I finally put the crutches in the closet and set about getting my life back. It hurts like hell to walk on it, but I just can't sit here and stare at the computer, walls or TV anymore.
Along with all this navel gazing, I've been going through some stuff. I've come to a point in my life where I just want peace. Not silence. I like noise. For instance:
I've done the "young" marriage. I've done the back and forth and misunderstood and reading into something you did NOT say. I don't want to do it anymore. I'm too old for drama and crap. I actually said "I don't need to be understood by you or anyone else. I won't fight to be understood. I need no vindication. I KNOW I'm amazing. What's YOUR malfunction??"
So, how do you deal with a situation you totally walked into? I married a "newbie", so why do I find myself with the lack of patience to get through the beginning? I just want to jump ahead to the part I should be at.
God love him. He stepped into a full house. I just can't help but throw my hands up and say "You were warned". I realize my intolerance is my own problem, but I've got three kids to figure out. My plate is full!
Until all of this sorts itself out, I think I'll sit here and have a glass of Marzemino, listen to some G&R and continue to try and decode the teenager. And that's a whole new post.
I've reached the 5 week mark of The Broken Foot Debacle. Antsy doesn't begin to describe my state of mind. Today, I finally put the crutches in the closet and set about getting my life back. It hurts like hell to walk on it, but I just can't sit here and stare at the computer, walls or TV anymore.
Along with all this navel gazing, I've been going through some stuff. I've come to a point in my life where I just want peace. Not silence. I like noise. For instance:
- Music
- Kids laughing
- My silly dog dreaming
- I love yous
- Talking till all hours about philosophy
- People stalking through the house with iPods on
- Kids arguing and teenagers snarking
- My silly dog barking at me because he needs out and I can't take him
- I love you...but you're driving me insanes
- Arguing till all hours about ridiculous, unimportant crap
I've done the "young" marriage. I've done the back and forth and misunderstood and reading into something you did NOT say. I don't want to do it anymore. I'm too old for drama and crap. I actually said "I don't need to be understood by you or anyone else. I won't fight to be understood. I need no vindication. I KNOW I'm amazing. What's YOUR malfunction??"
So, how do you deal with a situation you totally walked into? I married a "newbie", so why do I find myself with the lack of patience to get through the beginning? I just want to jump ahead to the part I should be at.
God love him. He stepped into a full house. I just can't help but throw my hands up and say "You were warned". I realize my intolerance is my own problem, but I've got three kids to figure out. My plate is full!
Until all of this sorts itself out, I think I'll sit here and have a glass of Marzemino, listen to some G&R and continue to try and decode the teenager. And that's a whole new post.
Stop trying to figure them all out. It will make you crazier than you already are!
*comfort*